My sincere thanks to everyone for their comments. I appreciate every one! Mom is in the hospital for depression but will probably be going home in a few days. It's become a regular routine for her now, this going to the hospital a few days before a holiday. She gets depressed and violent toward others so she's sent to the hospital psych ward to calm down.
I'm not much into the holiday spirit myself. Well, hmm, maybe that's not quite what I mean. I have made charity quilts for residents of the nursing home. I have gotten all the Xmas gifts sent. I gave money because everyone seems to need money these days. I feel good that I'm not giving something that may be unwanted and wind up being returned or re gifted. I think next year everyone should get a new quilt. It's been a few years since they all got one. Hmm... sounds like a goal to me.
I guess it just seems like I'm not in a holiday spirit because I'm not running in a dozen different directions to get stuff finished on time. I'm not rushing to finish customer quilts by Xmas eve and at the same time not rushing to prepare foods either. My daughter does the cooking now. Everything is done which leaves sort of an empty feeling. Like something is missing..... well DUH!.... what's missing is the rushing around trying to get a million things done. I like it!